Sadness

 Molly (basset #2) has gone down the hill in the backyard for the last time. My heart hurts so, so much. She had a big tumor behind her right scapula. We bought time with chronic pain meds since February. She started limping in January and got worse and could hardly walk. She couldn't hardly get out the front door to pee, much less down her back stairs into her beloved yard. But a sweet vet said we could medicate and give her a few more months. She was able to walk our street, jump on the couch (where she slept) and happy trot with treats and Himalayan cheese sticks. She ate so many green beans, carrots, zucchini trimmings, broccoli stumps (trees of doom), blueberries, strawberries. Lots of rolling in the yard, running like a young(er) dog again. Made my heart sing though I knew the end was coming. 

This week was the week that it got so much worse again. She couldn't get up on the couch to sleep. The last two to three days, she just paced the floor and couldn't get comfortable, even on her meds. She couldn't get up on her big barker bed in our bedroom to sleep, only her flatter mattress in the living room. Making the decision to love her enough to let her go has been heart breaking. We took her to our vet yesterday morning to let her rest peacefully. I held her, told her I loved her so, so much as she snored and went to sleep. My heart is just breaking in grief. I keep telling myself that great sorrow comes from great love. 

My sorrow runs deep.

Little Girl had to "write a letter" in history today - here is what she dictated to me...

Dear Nana,

We were attacked by Mexicans and have lost the battle of the Alamo. Me and my friends were scared because we had to burn our homes and run away. Sam Houston surprised the Mexican army at their camp and the Mexicans were forced to surrender. He captured 700 Mexican soldiers and Santa Ana. Texas has become a nation. But we are afraid if Mexico attacks us again, we will lose. Then we will be part of Mexico again.

Love,
G

KB home WOD

Couldn't jog this am (little one and me home alone this am) and no one meeting at Coach's house so I am on own at home to search the Non Nobis archives. Found the following (mod'ed a little for me to do at home):

Four minute rounds x 5 - air squats, russian kb swings, burpees, rest

round 1 - 37, 31, 10

round 2 - 31, 33, 8

round 3 - 28, 30, 8

round 4 - 30, 30, 8

round 5 - 25, 26, 8

I nearly didn't do round 5. I wanted to finish without regretting my laziness the rest of today, thus my low squat numbers due to exhaustion and quaking quads! 

I used my brand new kb from Fringe Sport and it whooped me!

Self directed WOD

On tuesday, the girls made up a wod... Cleans and burpees in escalating numbers - 55# and finished round 9 + 16 extras. Oof!

Today Stef and I just rowed 2500m - 11:59!

Tomorrow I work so no work out, maybe just some push ups and squats. ;)

Wod on my own today and got an interval timer for phone -

Right DB snatches 27-25-26

Left DB snatches 21-21-19

Sit ups - 34-30-29

Last time I did this, numbers were about the same but my weight was 20# this time (15# last time). Hooray for improvement!

Trying to get back to blogging

Life is busy - I help school children, go to work, try to keep laundry done, pick up house, chauffeur young people. My family (minus Shorty) has been doing a CrossFit program since early in 2016. Actually the teenager has been doing it longer but that is ok. I log my WODs on CF days but have started jogging with some friends 1-2 days a week. I will try to start journaling about jogging a bit. I also knit, less than I want to but enough to be theraputic for me. I log my projects on Ravelry but might start posting some pics here as well. Guess I am an older lady who knits now. ;P

Anyway, I am in the stage of life that hurries by. I am trying to savor the messy house, piles of laundry, time in the car because soon enough, these days will be gone. I love our girls and want to live every bit of this with them to remember.

Another school year

School at our house is full on - the kids are in a classical co-operative model school - trivium, latin, and part at school and part at home. Between home days and working, I am just worn out by May when they are "done" with the school year. This is the last week of school and we are all so ready. We do have plans for staying sharp over the summer but we are all ready for a rest and a slower paced schedule. We just need to make it through Thursday ... but then the big one has two (yes, TWO) parties on Friday and attending graduation on Friday evening. Ha! The blessing of chauffeuring continues cause soon enough she will ask for the keys and be off. I will be crying this week... I do cry a lot anyway but the mile stones remind me of how life flows by and this is a blessed time in theirs and mine.