Monday, August 25, 2008
Too tired to post
Yep, just what the title says. I am too tired to type out my thoughts. And many times my thoughts are conflicted and complicated. So I am having trouble typing things out "on paper" right now. We are still here, I am just struggling.
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
Sadness
My mom called Monday evening and my sister is going through a miscarriage. I am so sad for them. They have been married for 11 years and have been busy being pastor/pastor's wife and devoting their lives to that. My mom was excited to be a grandma again, H was going to be a cousin for the first time, I would get to be an aunt...
I am also sad that my sister has to go through the physical and emotional pain of losing a child. I can't imagine how much that hurts. I have had a couple days to think about this. I grieve the loss of what could have been with our last 2.5 years of trying to get pregnant. I think that the grieving would be more intense because there is actually a loss of a little person. At least we just haven't been able to get pregnant. I can't imagine the grief and loss of a child. This verse has been rolling around my head and I sent it to her last night...
"He (God) said to me, 'My grace IS sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
Gives new perspective on my strengths and weaknesses...
I am also sad that my sister has to go through the physical and emotional pain of losing a child. I can't imagine how much that hurts. I have had a couple days to think about this. I grieve the loss of what could have been with our last 2.5 years of trying to get pregnant. I think that the grieving would be more intense because there is actually a loss of a little person. At least we just haven't been able to get pregnant. I can't imagine the grief and loss of a child. This verse has been rolling around my head and I sent it to her last night...
"He (God) said to me, 'My grace IS sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
Gives new perspective on my strengths and weaknesses...
Monday, July 28, 2008
Slacker here...
Whee, I haven't posted in a month! What a slacker I am...
Summer is sliding by here. I wanted to take H to Zilker Park to the springs and swim cause we can't swim in a chlorinated pool. But we just haven't made it. I want T to go with us and we just haven't had him take a day off other than for me to work. It is pretty hot... I think it was 102 or something awful like that. But that is Texas in the dog days of July and August. ;)
We spend lots of time with the water hose and the lawn chair out in the front yard. The beloved dog has a long picket line type leash that my in-laws gave us and it has been wonderful. Precious Dog isn't on a 6 foot leash now in the front. Hooray!
I am really struggling with energy levels. I have been working more shifts for a year now and it isn't doing great. I am starting to take 1 weekend off a month and only working 8 or so shifts a month. Working 10 or so is hard on me physically and it is hard on our family. But it is better than T having a second job to make ends meet. I have the second job instead of him. Speaking of jobs, we are praying about his. The powers that be are moving web content to the Gateway team and so T will be doing something else for the first time in years. We have no idea what yet. I am trying to pray faithfully for my husband. My prayer is that he will have a job that challenges him mentally and provides him with problem solving opportunities instead of being a trained monkey. ;) And, yes, he reads this blog. He knows what I mean.
We are still hanging out and waiting on God for an addition to the family. My sister called about a week ago and they are expecting their first child. Everyone is excited and I am excited for her. I am sad for us. It has been a long 2.5 years. God is continuing to grow and stretch my patience.
I will try not to go a month without posting again.
Summer is sliding by here. I wanted to take H to Zilker Park to the springs and swim cause we can't swim in a chlorinated pool. But we just haven't made it. I want T to go with us and we just haven't had him take a day off other than for me to work. It is pretty hot... I think it was 102 or something awful like that. But that is Texas in the dog days of July and August. ;)
We spend lots of time with the water hose and the lawn chair out in the front yard. The beloved dog has a long picket line type leash that my in-laws gave us and it has been wonderful. Precious Dog isn't on a 6 foot leash now in the front. Hooray!
I am really struggling with energy levels. I have been working more shifts for a year now and it isn't doing great. I am starting to take 1 weekend off a month and only working 8 or so shifts a month. Working 10 or so is hard on me physically and it is hard on our family. But it is better than T having a second job to make ends meet. I have the second job instead of him. Speaking of jobs, we are praying about his. The powers that be are moving web content to the Gateway team and so T will be doing something else for the first time in years. We have no idea what yet. I am trying to pray faithfully for my husband. My prayer is that he will have a job that challenges him mentally and provides him with problem solving opportunities instead of being a trained monkey. ;) And, yes, he reads this blog. He knows what I mean.
We are still hanging out and waiting on God for an addition to the family. My sister called about a week ago and they are expecting their first child. Everyone is excited and I am excited for her. I am sad for us. It has been a long 2.5 years. God is continuing to grow and stretch my patience.
I will try not to go a month without posting again.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Promised Cake Pictures
Here is proof that a GF/DF/EF cake can be done *and* as a bonus, they were good! And the girl is beautiful too, if I do say so myself. *blush*
Enjoy!
H's Birthday Party
My girl is 6 years old. Many days I have paced the floor and prayed that God would preserve my daughter and allow her to grow. Her birthday is a reminder that God has answered our prayers with a resounding "YES!" She is growing and thriving and learning.
The picture is of her and her friends at her first *friend* birthday party. All her grandparents came, a great aunt came and the friends came too. We had a lovely time out at Lion's Park and got to visit w/ friends. And I was reminded again that I am so blessed to have a 6 year old girlie.
We love our CP/NB flour food (at least H and I do) and Hannah had birthday cake for the first time this year. With PINK frosting! LOL I am having trouble posting the pink cakes so I will do a separate post with the cake pics. The cakes are good and we will use the recipe again.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Organization?
I am definitely lacking in organization. Some days I get lots done and some days I sit in front of the computer, exhausted. Probably has to do with my work schedule as well. ;) During room time today, I worked on a list of things that we need to do during the week. To me, the weekends are a wash because that is when I work outside our home.
Summer is definitely here. We are hovering around 100 F every day. July and August are just around the corner - this is when everything will bake around here. We walk Amy almost every morning and it is still cool enough to do that. H scraped her knees last week and so we can't swim/water play for another day or so. Her scabs came off last week and she was so traumatized by that. So tomorrow we are going to Gran and Poppie's to water their plants and soak some clothes. We will put the clothes in their washer and then have lunch, feed the mules and walk around. Then I can wash the clothes more here but all the sizing and junk has to be out before I can wash at home.
I am praying for peace about staying here. I really want to move and leave but no house on a regular lot will be better for us than this one is. There is a hunk of dirt for sale out about 25 miles from where we are now. It is not farm land and is hilly and lovely. The problem is that it is 157 acres (yikes) for $510,000. We don't really have a use for 157 acres and we certainly don't have half a million bucks. We really don't want to go into debt hugely for another place and would like to save up $$$ and buy. We have lots of equity in this house so once we sell, we could pay off quite a bit as well. We don't mind having a mortgage again on a new house but we aren't able to spend that kind of money. I keep praying that God will help me wait on him and his timing. But I can't work hard enough to save enough money to buy some place like that. God will have to provide something smaller for us. Maybe he doesn't want us in Central Texas and we are to wait. Oh, that patience muscle hurts so much when it is flexed and strengthened! Please God help me!
Summer is definitely here. We are hovering around 100 F every day. July and August are just around the corner - this is when everything will bake around here. We walk Amy almost every morning and it is still cool enough to do that. H scraped her knees last week and so we can't swim/water play for another day or so. Her scabs came off last week and she was so traumatized by that. So tomorrow we are going to Gran and Poppie's to water their plants and soak some clothes. We will put the clothes in their washer and then have lunch, feed the mules and walk around. Then I can wash the clothes more here but all the sizing and junk has to be out before I can wash at home.
I am praying for peace about staying here. I really want to move and leave but no house on a regular lot will be better for us than this one is. There is a hunk of dirt for sale out about 25 miles from where we are now. It is not farm land and is hilly and lovely. The problem is that it is 157 acres (yikes) for $510,000. We don't really have a use for 157 acres and we certainly don't have half a million bucks. We really don't want to go into debt hugely for another place and would like to save up $$$ and buy. We have lots of equity in this house so once we sell, we could pay off quite a bit as well. We don't mind having a mortgage again on a new house but we aren't able to spend that kind of money. I keep praying that God will help me wait on him and his timing. But I can't work hard enough to save enough money to buy some place like that. God will have to provide something smaller for us. Maybe he doesn't want us in Central Texas and we are to wait. Oh, that patience muscle hurts so much when it is flexed and strengthened! Please God help me!
Monday, June 02, 2008
Wedding Complete
The wedding was a great success! B & T did great and were so sweet. H was a great ring bear and was so proud "to be perfect and not wrinkled, Mommy!" I don't have any pics yet. We got all our things - clothes, shoes, belt, socks, food - and were half way up there. I remembered that we had not gotten the camera. =( But we all were appropriately dressed and had a great time. H only had trouble at the reception and putting her mask back on fixed that for a while. Then we went back to Nana and Pawpaw's. She did ok there until about 20 people arrived at the same time and the reflux struck. We did bicarb and she stayed outside for the couple of hours that we had left. We didn't get home until 2315 and then all three of us got through the shower. H slept all night and we were/are so thankful. We all got to enjoy our extended families and didn't make H or myself miserable. Praise God!!!
I had the HSG the Thursday before the wedding. We made the most of "trying" and I am trying patiently to wait and see what happens. I am so *not* patient and this 2 week wait is causing me distress. I am praying that God will give me the grace to accept what he plans - another possibly sensitive bub or to be satisfied with the wonderful blessing of H. In some ways, I would love to just have H. Life is good right now. I am catching up on all the sleep deprivation that I had for 5 years! Time will tell but I am impatient. ;)
H and I are spending our afternoons in the pool under the trees again. It is 95ish today and hot. I am thankful for our lovely trees that make our yard bearable in this heat. We walk the precious bassett in the mornings to get us out in the cooler part of the day and then a bit of school work and lunch. I am trying to do "room time" after lunch and then we go outside. Today has been full of mowers so we are back in right now. We will go back out in about 10 minutes. Got to get those wiggles out!
I had the HSG the Thursday before the wedding. We made the most of "trying" and I am trying patiently to wait and see what happens. I am so *not* patient and this 2 week wait is causing me distress. I am praying that God will give me the grace to accept what he plans - another possibly sensitive bub or to be satisfied with the wonderful blessing of H. In some ways, I would love to just have H. Life is good right now. I am catching up on all the sleep deprivation that I had for 5 years! Time will tell but I am impatient. ;)
H and I are spending our afternoons in the pool under the trees again. It is 95ish today and hot. I am thankful for our lovely trees that make our yard bearable in this heat. We walk the precious bassett in the mornings to get us out in the cooler part of the day and then a bit of school work and lunch. I am trying to do "room time" after lunch and then we go outside. Today has been full of mowers so we are back in right now. We will go back out in about 10 minutes. Got to get those wiggles out!
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