Waving

Skunk waved bye bye to Daddy for the first time today. He was thrilled and she was cute. ;)

Clapping and Tears

Skunk started clapping today. She just stands in the floor (her balance is pretty good) and claps her hands together. Of course, she gets lots of oh's and ah's from us and she grins real big. =D She is getting so much better at just standing and can crouch down and sit without anything to hang on to. Bear is "helping her practice walking" by holding her hands and walking between the kitchen and living room. With Bear, the computer man and I did the helping but Bear has taken over with Skunk. It is pretty cute, I must say. Must try to get a pic of them.

I finally figured out why I have been so sad today. Yesterday was one year since we lost Amy. Hannah and I cried last evening because it is memorial day and we remembered Amy along with our troops. It sounds crazy and not honoring to these brave soldiers but I do pray for them and their families daily. I miss her so much but I am so glad that she isn't lonely for us. I will never forget Amy unless I am old and demented. Every day I miss you and your unconditional love. I wouldn't trade a day that we had. I hope you are happy chasing squirrels and laying in the shade. I love you and miss you, precious hounder!

Slacker

I have been bad about posting. Just a few quick notes and hopefully back later with a good post. Skunk has 6 teeth and is standing independently. I have been spending most of my time reading the Kindle app and playing in the floor w/ her. Bear spends a lot of time watching Netflix and playing games on the computer. Both are growing. Skunk has recovered from the misery of spring bloom and is better with going to bed and eating for now. She is just as sensitive and we still struggle daily. I have an appointment with the FP in 2 days to talk about the same abx course that Bear and I did. I have tried and tried to get her to tolerate the oil and she just doesn't. I can't even warm her bottle in the microwave without her reacting. =(

Off to take care of a shower for me while Skunk is down. Hope to be back later!

Dropping a Nap

My baby is going to 2 naps per day... she is getting so big! I bet she is between 18 and 19 pounds but no way am I taking her in to the stinky pedi office to weigh! She is doing so well yesterday and today. On a whim, I gave her zyrtec BID one day this week when a neighbor mowed. Suddenly, I have my nice baby who eats and plays again. Still waking up 2-3 times at night but if she will eat and play, I can try and get up at night without complaining. She is crawling all over the house and figured out on Monday how to get down from standing without just falling down. =) She carefully puts a hand down and lowers herself to the ground. So precious...

The big girl is doing ok, some days are better than others. She is missing getting outside and doing whatever we wanted. Spring is lovely with the temps but mama is snotty and miserable even with just 10 minutes outside. Every flowering tree around has flowers and the pecan's are dripping pollen. Hopefully in the next couple weeks things will calm down and we can just go to grass pollen.

I am praying for my attitude and for God to provide for my girls so that they can play, eat and sleep as best they can.

Another song used by God to speak to my heart - Fee

you said you'd never leave or foresake me
when you said, this life is gonna shake me
you said this world is gonna bring trouble on my soul
this i know

when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
your the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
i find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on
you keep holding on

when i see the darkness all around me
when i see the tragedy has found me
i still believe your faithful arms will never let me go
and still i know

when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
your the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
i find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on
you keep holding on

sorrow will last for the night but hope is rising with the sun
there will be storms in this life but i know you will overcome
but i know you will overcome

when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
your the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
i find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on

when everything falls apart
your arms hold me together
when everything falls apart
your the only hope for this heart
when everything falls apart
and my strength is gone
i find you mighty and strong
you keep holding on

Please, God, hold me together because I am falling apart and my strength is gone

Allergies are killing us here

Skunk is just one big histamine reaction all day and all night. She wakes about 12am and sleeps the rest of the night on me. We usually wake at about 230 or 3 and I feed her again. She is hardly eating in the day so I don't begrudge her dream feeding at night. She drinks so much better when sleepy and so I go with what works for now. Bear is struggling some with allergies/histamine reactions but nothing like Skunk is. T and I are just itchy, tired, snotty and allergic as well. Such joy!

Moving on

Skunk is truly moving on... she has gone from scooting backwards to crawling all over the living room and kitchen. And she is pulling up on the window sills, fireplace, foot stool - pretty much anything that she can reach. She will not wait to walk until 12+ months like her sister did.

She and Bear are totally enjoying playing with Mega blocks, Noah's ark and all her other toys. Bear is happy that she finally can play with Skunk and have a good time.

We seem to have recovered from the spraying of almost 2 weeks ago except that Skunk is still waking at night but at least she is sleeping in the day and mostly at night. She is round and plump. I fed her bits of my breakfast bread today and will do so for breakfast the next couple days and see how we do. She still gets her milk but I am trying to get her eating some CP stuff instead of just drinking it. Then I want to add in some of her calcium and get that in her too. She does the B Vit's and probiotics so far but it is so hard to test out supps when she reacts to so much else. The multi-vit was a not well tolerated so we are trying out separate supps to get her minerals in her.

That is all for now in the pollen infested world I live in... waiting for tree pollen to go away!

Sheesh!

Fertilizing and spraying weather has returned. Both girls have been struggling for 5 days. I just find this misery almost unbearable. Skunk has taken to refusing about 1 feeding per day (still drinking her CP milk and eating chicken the rest of the day though) and waking about 3 times at night. Makes for a tired mom and then Bear is crying, sensory issues 'way on overload, arguing over. every. little. thing. Makes me want to resign my post but there is no other way.

Bear and I were up and about this evening and we heard Skunk hitting a toy that she should not have been able to reach from the floor. Here is what we found:




Aren't they beautiful? Just have rotten guts like their Dad and Mom. But God is the creator and sustainer of life and made them just as they are. He is also the healer and Great Physician and is capable of caring for them so much better and more competently that I.