Monday, October 29, 2007

First Field Trip

Hooray! H and I went on our first field trip on Friday. We visited Silo Christmas Tree Farm and experienced their pumpkin harvest. We had a lot of fun and H was exhausted. =D We took a nature walk and looked at different trees and grasses, we rode in the hay wagon around the farm, we played pasture games. H liked ladder golf, bean bag tossing and washers. The farm had a lovely old silo and I got some good pictures of it all. It was a lovely fall day and we just totally enjoyed being mostly normal and enjoying God's creation and our friends.

If I can figure out how to post a pic or two, I will do so.

On other subjects, I have decided that I cannot continue to work this much. I was off for about 6 days and it was great. I got to where I wasn't tired constantly and there was food available. I worked this last weekend and got so frustrated. T didn't even take H outside on Saturday. We have been spending most of our days outside since the weather is so nice. AmyDog gets to go for walks, we enjoy the weather, each other and our dog. =)

Though today, I am frustrated cause the house is a mess. The floor was nasty, the cabinets were grunchy and I am tired from working. Thank goodness I don't have to go to work tonight. I do have to work evenings for three days next weekend and Monday. I am totally not looking forward to that right now. Evenings working until 1am just throws my body clock for a huge loop. And daylight savings time is next weekend too. So it will be an hour later still to my old body. I am praying that I will make it through without too much fussing at H.

October is almost gone and I am amazed at how the year has flown by.

Monday, October 22, 2007

Eternal Perspective

Well, fall finally arrived in Central Texas on the day we were to go on our first field trip. Rain, cold wind and a high of 55 degrees. Our pumpkin harvest field trip was cancelled. =( H and I were so disappointed. But we are going to try and reschedule as a group. I sure hope that my work schedule will allow us to go.

We went to Whole Foods instead and looked at all the lovely veggies. They even had okra but it was all moldy and nasty. The chicken was on sale and I was so excited to save $1 per pound. LOL

Yesterday we went up to church and had the elders pray over us and H. I feel so alone with not being able to socialize much and not being able to fellowship at church. It was both wonderful and bittersweet to go back. We have been out of that life for 5+ years now and most people that we used to know just think that we have moved away. The sad thing is that we are still here and very alone sometimes. I want to have enough faith to trust that God can heal H and I but it has been a long lonely road. I can honestly say that he has never left me on the road though. And many times, I truly think that Christ alone sustains me. I miss the encouragement of corporate worship but I know that God has used this part of my life (both forward and backward) to teach me of his justice, sovereignty and love. Through H, I can get a glimpse of how dearly God treasures me and how frustrating and child-like that I am to him. I have such a finite perspective and I crave the eternal perspective of Almighty God. I get bogged down in the day-to-day and forget to be thankful for all those moments with H and how wonderful she is right now.

Change my heart, O God!

Our Improvement on GF/DF++ Dietary Change

An update on our progress for my journal...

H is doing well, though still affected by chemicals. Perfumes and printing ink are particularly bad but we try to avoid most chemical exposures. Prior to the program, H could only go outside 2-3 times weekly. If we went out more, she would start with subtle symptoms of an amine reaction and night waking was first to occur. She would also be defiant, argumenative and grouchy, not very obedient, and she usually is obedient. Also, with the least chemical exposure, she would drastically reduce her limited food intake and struggle greatly with reflux symptoms, waking at night screaming and gulping and miserable. She and I had such horrid gut reactions that we had to be inside our home for several hours before we could eat... otherwise we would experience diarrhea, horrid gas, those reflux symptoms.

Since the program, we are out every day, multiple times daily. We walk the dog, play outside all afternoon, attend park days with the local homeschool group, etc. We also can picnic and take our food with us. This is absolutely miraculous in my humble opinion. We are not limited to hiding indoors and away from people all the time. I still must be careful with the chemical exposures for her as she then can only nibble at her food and refuses some things all together. We can now tolerate some meats from the organic grocery (chicken with quick turnover) and that makes life so much easier for me.

We are going on a field trip with our homeschool friends to a pumpkin patch 1.5 hours drive away on Monday! It is H's first field trip, made possible by PF and God's grace! I think I am more excited right now than she is because I know how far we have come.

I truly was prepared for the worst when it came to starting the program and was terrified of the effect on H. She is slowly healing, each day/week brings improvement as I look back. We are still on our original list of foods but have recently grown mung bean sprouts and tried turnips. I love having tea every 2nd day (WHOOOOO) and salad is marvelous. Crunchy cereal is our favorite and we live on it!

I am not an adventerous cook so our diet is not as exciting as some but H doesn't like exciting things! =) Maybe dh and I will branch out as we start adding more things in. He is picky about his veggies and we are all sad that okra is out of season here.

Our results are far beyond what I could have hoped for as I was totally afraid to hope after 5 years of disappointment. We have been in the kingdom for 3 months and I daily look back in wonder at our healing, no short of a miracle!