Thursday, October 19, 2006

Catch up...

Well, I have officially been a slacker now for a month and a half with the blog. =D I started the new job and it is really fun and I enjoy it. *But* it has taken the wind out of my sails with mental and physical energy. Hopefully as it becomes more routine, I won't have to think so hard in what/how to prescribe and such. I did quit my other job as I am really enjoying this one but it was hard to part with 10 years at the old employer. A lot of water under the bridge there and a lot has happened in my life in those 10 years. Made me pretty sad to do that but this job is doing what I went to school to do and have wanted to do for the last 9 years and it pays *so* much better. And the schedule is regular, no guessing when I work or waiting for the schedule to come out.

H is doing great, she does enjoy the school thing when I get my act together enough to pull lessons together. It is just hard with her chemical issues to get everything scanned and make do with what she doesn't react to! My mom and dad have started scanning books for us and that has been a tremendous help. God knew that with the new job that I would not have the stamina to scan in the garage. They can scan in the AC comfort of their den and email us the books. It is fabulous for us and I have tried to communicate how much this has meant to us.

H is even learning to read, although she doesn't think that she can. She is playing games on the computer and is also writing with sidewalk chalk outside, writing in flour on the counter and in the computer! Kids can really learn despite the obstacles that are thrown at them. Thank God for her resiliency!

I will try to keep up better with this but can't promise anything. I just would like to have a written record of the precious years with Hannah. I am still thankful to get to be home with her and enjoy this time.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Another (Birth) Day

Well, I have officially become thirty three today. :0

My dad says "only one day older than yesterday!" and I like that. Life at thirty three is a bit different than I imagined it.

I didn't think that I would ever get to be a stay at home mom and the difficulties and joys that come with it. I sometimes long for the days that I had a lunch time, not really an hour as I was too busy at work. But sitting at my desk with the door shut sounds pleasant! LOL I have friends whose children are grown and they tell me to enjoy these days but it is hard. The midst of temper tantrums, crying, whining... and then come the precious hugs and little arms wrapped around my neck. And I *can't* imagine missing these days just to go to work and get a paycheck. *tears blur my vision here* She is so infinitely precious and these days will only last a little while and then I have forever to work again. So, my perspective is short and long. Some days feel like they will never end for me to get to bed and in some ways, the precious time is too short. I am trying to hold onto the feeling of those arms and the soft face...

Please God, don't let her grow up too fast! Please God, let me enjoy even the difficult moments right now because that is what you have given me for today. Please God, let me have your patience (cause I have no more) with an emotional, crying girl. Please Father, let me reflect your love to a precious little girl who needs to know the God of the universe who created her and loves her more dearly than I do.

Thursday, August 31, 2006

Work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt, and dance like no one is watching. -- Satchel Paige

I have seen this quote before and liked it but today it just struck me. Living life and being a bit jaded now that I am not so young (LOL), sometimes I do go to work for money but I still love getting to go to work. It is hard to love like you have never been hurt as most of us have had at least our feelings hurt by a spouse, parent or child. The hardest is to dance and enjoy life at a slower pace and not to care about other people watching. I am going to try and remember this quote.

One of my favorite parts of the Bible to think about is the "greatest commandment" that Jesus set forth: Love the Lord your God with all of your heart, soul and strength. God's law and requirements for us are higher and better (and more difficult) than any great quote by any man. How can I love God with all of my heart, soul and strength? Only with the help of the Holy Spirit and lots of prayer... flat on my face, prostrate before the throne of Almighty God.

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Another week (at least the beginning of one)

Well, we survived a trip to Dallas in August with no air conditioning. It sure was hot but windows rolled down helped us only be hot and not stifled. We did look at newer cars there and I think we have decided on a Honda Accord. It will cause H difficulty as even our 14 year old car does that but... what are we to do? We have to have wheels.

Yesterday we were to have playgroup for our local home school crowd and they moved the playgroup inside as it was scattered raining. H and I were both disappointed. We went driving and looked at a few lots and then spent and hour at a park. We accidently drove by a road work crew laying new oil and rocks. H reacted badly for the rest of the afternoon and evening (think *horrid* gut problems). She and I were both reacting, her to the chemical issues and me to the allergens. What a combination! Today, she has hardly been able to eat and told me this morning, "I just don't want to eat this morning Mommy." Finally at 9am she decided she would eat rice crackers and ate about 20. Thank goodness for Neocate, though she has had trouble drinking that today as well. She has also been exceedingly whiny and clingy today, followed me everywhere in the house.

I have a rippin' headache today and just am exhausted. I want to lay down and put my head under a pillow but who can do that with a four year old cavorting about and needing supervision. LOL So we have had to endure together. Bonding...

Enough whining from me...

I would like to start Hannah's school next week but just feel that I am not ready. If I can scan some stuff this weekend, then we could start. But I will need a couple of hours to scan outside the house in order to be prepared... we shall see. We may shoot for 9-15 instead of 9-5, plus Tuesday is my birthday and maybe I don't want to start school then. Time will tell. I am really looking forward to Five in a Row and H learning to read. She is really ready and it would give her something to do.

I start my new job next week, orientation on 9-7. =) I am totally terrified and excited at the same time. I ordered my new Palm yesterday and hope that it comes before this weekend. I need to play with it a bit and study some prior to next week. I am ready to make some extra money though and help pay for a car and save money for a newer, safer house for us.

Lookout, here comes Nurse Practitioner E! ROFL

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Allergies are killing me again...

Well, it is another August day in Texas. We ventured outside yesterday afternoon for about 45 minutes and had a good time. We visited with the backyard guardian, Amy the bassett hound, and watered all the plants. H got to swing for a bit which she loves and we walked around and enjoyed the yard. It was hot enough that the mosquitos weren't out yet and we didn't get bit to death.

I have been suffering from the outside exposure as the grass and weed counts are pretty high. Today I have just laid around and done my best to play with H. She has had to be patient as I am just worn out. We have played kickball and drums and marched around the house. So much energy, sure wish I could just send her outside to play and get those wiggles out. LOL

As you can tell, no deep thoughts on this blog... at least not with any regularity. LOL Too tired for that.

Until next time...

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Another Dog Day of Summer...

Well, this is my first post in my first blog... probably not very exciting. I asked my dh to find a way for me to blog as a way to document our daily lives and H's milestones. He sent me this link and I am on my way. =)

H has grown so much and is changing every day. She can jump really well for being four and is jumping over pillows, legs, dolls and anything else that will stay still. She is obviously not like her flat footed mother who can hardly get off the ground! LOL

She can also spell her name, type it on the computer and write it down, in all capitals, of course. But we think it is pretty amazing that she is four and doing that. She also really wants to read and "do kindegarten/school" so she and I will be embarking on the beginnings of a gentle kindegarten with the homeschool (hs) curriculum, Five in a Row ( . We love reading together and this seems to be a natural way to start "schooling" without high pressure. I actually would rather put schooling off a bit but she is ready and maybe we can take this slow so that she thinks it is more fun than work. School is supposed to be fun and hopefully it will stay that way.

Thanks for reading...