Tuesday, June 29, 2010


We survived the ab's. Now we will see if we get any improvement for Skunk. Bear still struggles along and I have called to request her ab's from our pcp.

On a different note, we had run out of baked stuff due to my baking error. I forgot to add sugar to Bear's muffin cake last week and it turned out like a brick and tasted awful. So I was hungry for 2 days and baked this morning. She is so glad to have muffin cake back and I am so glad for my cereal. Skunk still had some trouble but seemed to survive. It is so hot to bake with the windows open and leave them until 1p. The house is about 85+ and stifling. Makes me feel sorry for those who existed before air conditioning! It is one thing to be outside in 95 degree weather but in the house is just miserable - humid and sticky. Fans are our friend on these days.

Off to bed!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Day 3

We have 5 days left and will see where we are. I am begging and pleading with God to help my babies. Bear had a hard time after being at the dentist - much worse fallout than any other visit. Skunk is plugging along. Monday was an awful day for both girls and Monday night Skunk and I didn't sleep much. We are balanced between her needing to switch over to 2 naps per day and being so tired in doing so. I had pushed back the memories of the utter tiredness of my girls when reacting but having to drop a nap. I am repeating Proverbs 3:5 and 6 to myself many times daily as well as Isaiah 40 at the end. I just pray that God will allow me to walk and not faint, to trust in Him with *all* my heart and not trust my own knowledge. He alone can direct our lives and knows what is best. His wisdom is unsearchable and he loves us more than I can ever know or imagine. I just have to trust...

Sunday, June 20, 2010


Skunk is in the midst of her first viral illness. I got sick last weekend at work (amazingly doesn't happen very often) and she got it from me. When Bear was little, she and I passed illnesses back and forth but as she got older, we didn't always catch what the other had. Now I made Skunk sick. She sticks her hands in my mouth, eats and drinks after me and sleeps on me. I don't think I could find a way to keep from making each other sick. She has snot running, has had a fever for 36 hours and is generally more fussy than usual (which is saying something). She will usually play in the floor with me and today, all she wanted me to do was hold her. Tonight she did some crawling but wouldn't get very far from one of us. I am on day 6 of the illness and am much better so hopefully only another day or two to go for her.

Bear goes to the dentist tomorrow morning. It will be hard on her with all their smelly stuff but hopefully she will survive without too much fall out. I have to bake tomorrow as well as we start the last week of our ab's tomorrow night. I am praying for peace and endurance as well as God's healing for Skunk as we finish this home stretch. I really want her to be able to eat cereal and chippies and to be able to tolerate me baking and cooking so that I can do these things for Computer Man and Bear again. It has been a difficult year but God has been faithful to provide.

Friday, June 18, 2010


I cried today... my baby took 6 steps and soon she will no longer be a baby. She is precious and round in all the right places. Even though her babyhood has been difficult, she has been a joy and a balm to my heart after the struggle for Bear's survival. I love her fuzzy head, her round thighs, the slap of her hands on the floor as she power crawls. She is my last baby and I have enjoyed her being a baby more than I could have hoped. Thank you Lord for the blessing of Skunk.

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Having a hard time

Isaiah 40

Do you not know? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the LORD, the creator of the ends of the earth, neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable.

He gives power to the weak and to those who have no might, he increases strength.

Even the youths shall faint and be weary, the young men shall utterly fall,

But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.

My hope is in him and him alone.

Tuesday, June 01, 2010


Skunk waved bye bye to Daddy for the first time today. He was thrilled and she was cute. ;)