So Much

I have so much for which to be thankful. Since my post on living in the now instead of the maybe a new house, God has really been impressing upon me that I cannot live with the "what ifs" of life. H has the Steve Green cd's and one of the songs is "Do Not Worry about Tomorrow." That so strikes close to my fearful heart. I want to save $$$, buy some land, build a house and have another child all in the next few months. I cannot control any of those things but I can give my worry over to God. I am working on concentrating on what will glorify God in my life and not what can I get out of all this.

I am feeling so good today. It is Friday and I have had 4 days off. I am beginning to face the fact that work makes me really sick and how do I get around from going there? I just have to work less... It is hard to give up having energy to move and feeling good but also hard to give up my ability to go to work and be a competent adult person. Sigh... my significance doesn't come from work, right? Tell that to my heart!